well, I'm feeling like crap! :s

today, I'm just feeling like crap, you know? I just feel that I'm not good enough, I just feel that I'll disappoint everyone, I'm tired, I'm just tired. I'm tired of seeing other girls, having a normal life, being normal teenagers, and I just feel that I don't belong here! I don't know, it's hard to me! I'm not beautiful, I'm ugly and fat, and you can make sure that I'm not one of these girls that are always saying "ohh, omg, I'm so fat!" and, in really, she is perfect, she is skinny,  but I'm not. Every year, in PE, I have to go to the scale, and see my weight, and cry, and I have to hearing teacher says that I have to eat healthy food! but, who he think I am? What he thinks? He thinks that I eat pizza and cakes everyday? I try to be skinny, I really try! And, I don't eat sugar and other unhealthy food every day, ok? And I see all the other girls eating cookies, and chocolates, and I'm there, seeing their eating, but, I don't eat! Because I know that I'll get more and more fat! and, I'm not just talking about being fat! In every PE class, and in every day of summer in the beach, I feel like crap, you know? Just because I don't have skinny legs, or just because I have a big 'belly'! When I come to the shopping, I hate it too! It's rare when the shops have my size, and even more rare when some cloths fits me well! Well, I don't know what to say more, you know? tomorrow I'll do PE, and I'll feel like crap, AGAIN, but that's okay, everything's okay! the school, the country, the society doesn't worry about our feelings, because for them,  just the skinny and beautifull people exist! so yeah, I'm tired of this, I'm tired of can't do all the things because I'm fat, I'm shy! I'm just tired! I'm just feeling like crap!